Thursday, June 30, 2011





slovakphotographers:



h.a.n. (flickr user, no real name given)



Hanka! <3





slovakphotographers:



karel cudlín - bulgaria, 1983


My ugly legs, all beaten from bike, climbing to improper places and being careless in general, with sunburned feet with funny stripes. However, I have to like them, as they can walk me anywhere and are getting trained pretty quickly!


Somár






located in Carpathian Hills, especially suitable for Saturday hangover walks





rooftop breakfast (underexposed, forgotten to change film speed setting on camera :/)

Monday, June 27, 2011

Saudade

Saudade has been described as a “vague and constant desire for something that does not and probably cannot exist … a turning towards the past or towards the future”.



In fact, one can have ‘saudades’ of someone whom one is with, but have some feeling of loss towards the past or the future.


The state of mind has subsequently become a “Portuguese way of life”: a constant feeling of absence, the sadness of something that’s missing, wishful longing for completeness or wholeness and the yearning for the return of that now gone, a desire for presence as opposed to absence—as it is said in Portuguese, a strong desire to “matar as saudades” (lit. to kill the saudades).


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saudade ]


I remember such feeling ever since, most often on the verge of consciousness, when falling asleep or waking up, in disturbed morning sleep, and related to the absolutely pure fear and/of loneliness. However, it’s always missing something but don’t know what it is, as if it was forgotten in the dream. I think part of it haunts me through conscious day-life.


Discovered via http://vimeo.com/25559224, surely go and have a look at this video, the feeling is so familiar (for me) it gets creepy.

Currently I’m in such slowed-down mode but still eager to do things, just the required pace doesn’t fit me.


Experiencing troubles at school, slippage of dates, but I just can’t force myself to be stressed about it and try to catch up with the requirements. Even though I’m nervous about not being nervous, I realize it might be much better than the consequences of being stressed as hell.


It is always better “not to give a f_ck” a little more, than little less. At least as long as you have the choice.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

taken during habitat session, streamed from bedroom



sunset and setting, Petržalka, 2011

private suburban meadows



life cycle of a grass



státie - sedenie - študenti


Petržalka, 2011