h.a.n. (flickr user, no real name given)
Hanka! <3
Saudade has been described as a “vague and constant desire for something that does not and probably cannot exist … a turning towards the past or towards the future”.
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In fact, one can have ‘saudades’ of someone whom one is with, but have some feeling of loss towards the past or the future.
The state of mind has subsequently become a “Portuguese way of life”: a constant feeling of absence, the sadness of something that’s missing, wishful longing for completeness or wholeness and the yearning for the return of that now gone, a desire for presence as opposed to absence—as it is said in Portuguese, a strong desire to “matar as saudades” (lit. to kill the saudades).
[ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saudade ]
I remember such feeling ever since, most often on the verge of consciousness, when falling asleep or waking up, in disturbed morning sleep, and related to the absolutely pure fear and/of loneliness. However, it’s always missing something but don’t know what it is, as if it was forgotten in the dream. I think part of it haunts me through conscious day-life.
Discovered via http://vimeo.com/25559224, surely go and have a look at this video, the feeling is so familiar (for me) it gets creepy.
Currently I’m in such slowed-down mode but still eager to do things, just the required pace doesn’t fit me.
Experiencing troubles at school, slippage of dates, but I just can’t force myself to be stressed about it and try to catch up with the requirements. Even though I’m nervous about not being nervous, I realize it might be much better than the consequences of being stressed as hell.
It is always better “not to give a f_ck” a little more, than little less. At least as long as you have the choice.
photos 3 & 4 taken by duro // uchylord - formerly železobetón.sk / currently Avoided / Noize Konspiracy / psychoindustrial.sk
Matadorka, 2011
http://www.flickr.com/photos/furbifurbifurbi/
http://www.ententiki.com/ondro/
It’s hard to pick single photos from this guy, as his skill is best shown in juxtaposed images & storytelling. I’m also caught up by similar interests such as
life of a student or biketuning in the corridors of college dorm
and most importantly, sharing the same aestethics & perception of life (at least in the form of pictures).